Birth Control: My experience with the MINI PILL




So. Birth control pills. something that I am so very against but have been taking. If I were not in a relationship, or even in a relationship I knew were going to last a long time...I wouldn't be taking it. I was using Natural Family Planning before,the method of keeping track of your cycle, knowing when you're ovulating, and avoiding/protecting against pregnancy when you are most "fertile".
This method is as effective or even more so effective than a pill. 
However, I did fall pregnant with my sweetest Indee using this method. Mainly I think because I wasn't being as accurate as I should have been with keeping track  a certain month, and just so happen to get pregnant that month. We were using the "pull out method" at this time, but we see how that can fail! 
Sooo...as much as I would LOVE to go back to NFP for the sake of my body, it is just not possible at the moment. I have a new boyfriend, two kids from a previous relationship, an unstable cycle, and I think it makes my boyfriend more at ease that I am on birth control. Now...if things get really serious between the two of us and we are talking long term relationship I may educate him on this method and give it another go, but for now him and I are both comfortable with birth control pills. 

I have been taking the Mini Pill for 3 months now, and so far IM NOT pregnant, and all is well. It is working effectively I must admit, but here is what has been going on with my body.

First of all, my cycle is completely unpredictable. For the first time in YEARS I have no idea where my cycle is at. I think that is due to the pill changing my cycle, but maybe still postpartum problems? My body getting back to its normal? I am not sure, but I have no regular pattern, and I am not even sure I am ovulating right now. My cervical mucus is changing from the pill, and its very hard to tell if I am ovulating at all. 
How the pill works: The mini pill has no estrogen, used for breastfeeding mothers so that the combo hormones do not dry up the milk. If you are not breastfeeding the pill is not recommended because a combo hormone pill is most effective. The pill works by changing the lining of the uterus so that it is almost impossible for fertilization to occur. It also changes the cervical mucus making it hard for sperm to live in such environment.
What has been happening to me though is inbetween period spotting/bleeding. Since I have been taking the pill I have had a period to last 5 or so days, very heavy at the beginning, then slow down and stop by day 5. Then One to two weeks later I have a "mini period" that is spotting/bleeding but not even enough to use anything. Mostly occurs when I wipe, or have sex. Which is so irritating!!! I am bleeding every two weeks for 5 days at a time...which feels like I am bleeding ALL THE TIME. Sucks so bad. I just want to be able to have sex without a damn bloddy sex towell or bloody sheets. Is that too much to ask?

From the research I have done, this is pretty normal, but if it continues for months and months longer I should talk to my doctor. 
I am also experiencing mood changes/irritability, breast tenderness at times, a breast GROWTH, bloated around period start.
I have also experienced a more serious side effect of abdominal cramping/pain. 
This is all pretty normal effects for me on birth control, as it was the same when taking it in the past...but I KNOW in my heart it isn't natural or good for my body. Sigh :(

What can you do?
Get pregnant? NOT ready for that, nor do I want that. I am still trying to enjoy my new relationship, and have a baby Indee who is only 7 months old.
It's so hard to believe my body is still recovering from 9 months pregnancy, and childbirth...so the thought of another pregnancy and baby so soon makes me cringe!
Anyway....there is my experience with this birth control. This is where I am now with it, as much as I hate it, it is the best option for my boyfriend and I at the moment, even though I know it's doing my body no good.

What birth control methods do you use?

Lots of love!

xoxoxoxoxo
Naomi<3  



 

Clingy, Attached, Jealous feeling ICKKKY

Ever have those feelings in your relationship? You know when you start to feel really attached, clingy..jealous of things that haven't happened! What an icky place to be in.
Ive caught myself lately feeling this way. Like my whole world should revolve around love, ,my relationship with my boyfriend, moving forward....,HOLD UP SLOW THE FUCK DOWN NAOMI.

This is not the person I am. I dont cling and get so attached it drives me nuts but here I am lately feeling that way. I caught myself though and hopefully putting an end to it. Haha.
I guess being with someone that doesn't have kids makes it a constant struggle. He doesn't have two kids constantly needing attention. He is free to himself. I don't have a clue what the hell I would be doing with my time if I were free to myself.

Things didn't go that way for me obviously.  I am not even sure I can imagine life that way. Where I would be if it were just Naomi to be worried about.
So anyway...obviously I have no reason or way to get out and meet a ton of people and flaunt my stuff and flirt with random people etc...I have out with kids all day. So, coming up with scenarios in my head about what my "free" boyfriend must be doing with his alone time is what I have caught myself doing. And UGH. CUT that SHIT out. I don't want to even go there.

If he is a scumbag that is off cheating, calling/texting girls etc...he will be exposed eventually right?

I am not sure why I always have such a hard time trusting people..but I have a feeling my past has a lot to do with it. People haven't exactly been so great to me before so I often think "Well he must be doing those things behind my back too"...which is a ridiculous thought process but it makes sense why I have my guard up.

Anyway...back to being clingy.
Asking your man 20 times a day what he's doing, why won't you text back...YUCK TO THE FUCKING YUCK.
Why in the world would a man want someone who is so dependent on them? I don't want to be that girl. I want to do me, and my kiddos, then make time for him.

I do know that I love my boyfriend and want things to be awesome, of course I want things to move forward...
But why not appreciate what is now, and let it be?
Telling myself that everyday.

Anyway...I am a weirdo. So what??

I love your face. Yes, you Naomi. The one who writes this, and the only one to read it.


Much love,

-No longer clingy ass bitch.

xoxoxoxoxo
Naomi